bottled_up thoughts

When someone’s worth it, you are willing to stop flirting with other people to prove it to them. You are willing to stay up late even if you’re really sleepy and tired. You instantly “miss” them as soon as you guys get off the phone. You start to think about the future with them and you just can’t help but smile. When someones “worth it”, don’t let them get away.

I feel lost.
I haven’t felt this lost in so long. Not even when I stepped into a country where I barely understood what anyone was saying. Not even when I was wandering down streets and alleys without a map not knowing where I was going, and just turning wherever my heart told me to go. I’ve never actually been physically lost - I’ve always felt my way around, and known for the most part where I’m going or why I’m going down the road I chose.

But now I’ve lost my heart, and I’ve lost my sense of direction. I still know what I’m supposed to do here, and I still have that purpose, but I’m just clinging on to that. I know what I have left to do. But I’ve just lost the heart to do it, and I’ve lost that heart to something else.

What do I do now? I feel so lost. So extremely vulnerable, because I opened myself up to change and consequently left myself open to pain. There was a risk involved, and I took it without thinking twice, and now I pay for my carelessness. Recklessness.

What do I do now?

There’s always going to be this one thing you wish for but never get. That one mistake you wish you can erase but can never take back. And most of all, that one memory you would do anything for, just to have it again.
(Source: runawaytrain)

It may seem like the hardest thing to do, but you have to forget the guy who forgot about you.”
- Nicholas Sparks

It’s hard to let go of someone who has touched your life but it hurts more to say goodbye to someone who was never yours yet changed your life.

so damn true… :(